I'm a bitter man during the work week. Gotta fix that.

Went to an artsy type concert/event/dance about. It was much fun. Artists are great people to see, they do restore my faith in people, knowing that such free spirited people do exist. Also they are among the most interesting people you'll see, damn good people watching.

I was reading this article on a specific squat technique, and it said one of the major benefits of it was that it helps develop "Dad strength." I'm sure you all must know what I mean, but just in case you don't, it's how Dad's are deceptively strong and where the hell do you get that from. I suppose it has to do with age, knowing your body, and just developing strength over a long period of time.

Have you ever been mad at someone, but only because you obtained information through...less than moral means? And you know you can't tell them anything about it, because they can just as well (and very well should!) turn it around on you, so you just sit in your own little misery about it. Oh human nature, how tortuous you can be.

Shaving my head a little while back is now frustrating. I realize that I did like the hair, dammit. I guess this was just to do the back to back comparo, now I have to wait another month at least to get it back.

New insult: doucheberry

You know I really love internet humor. Internet forums are like my reality television. Screw having producers trying to show you what you want. No, no, I'll decide what I want to hear from other people's lives. It really comes down to the fundamental difference between the internet and television. Television has a set schedule which you are pretty much forced to watch, the internet has damn near anything at your disposal, you've just gotta be smart enough to search for it.

Hope you are all doing well

Love,

Joshy Poshy

Started the new job and it's goin pretty good. It's kinda nice being the new guy, nothing is really expected of you, so it's easy to impress. That being said, it's kinda boring and I'm basically doing grunt work.

And I hate getting up for work sucks. Taking a crowded train sucks even more. Seriously 11 hours of my day is devoted in some respect to work.

The constant struggle to quit smoking is definately making me re-evaluate aspects of my life. I feel like I'm getting a clearer picture on everything and everyone around me. I'm glad to have realized what's important and whom is, that being mutual relationships. I'm tired of giving all the time, it's nice to have people/someone who returns the favour.

Squatted 245lbs yesterday, noice. 315 in 6 months is the goal

I'm starting to think there may be more to this world than I before. I woke up thinking of a particular ex, and she phoned me later that day...after she had just woken up. Spooky.

I dunno what else to say. Life feels like such a waste if you're just supposed to work it all away.

crap, I work in 8 hours and I can't sleep.

every animal farts, so don't get offended when I do.

I'm so sick of high school math. Especially statistics. One of my students has Ms Tong (I'm sure you strathies remember her) and apparently she has become uber jaded with teaching Pure Math 30. I can see why.

I saw a picture of this 16 year old girl...s. She/them had two heads, and somehow has managed to live this long. And two stomachs...with one ass. hahahaha, oh my.

If you haven't seen goatse, lemonparty, or tubgirl, you haven't been on the internet long. Note: Anyone at work, I'm related to, or the easily offended, DON'T GO LOOKING FOR THEM. And don't say I didn't warn you.

That's Tokyo at night, rediculous.

I think what sucks about being single is the lack of human contact. Obviously you get hugs from your parents and the Gossen's (if you know them), but for the most part nobody actually touches each other in today's society. It's nice just to have a girl lay upon me while watching a movie.

Jesus, I'm stalling so bad right now. Why the hell is it I always want to sleep when I shouldn't be (i.e. at work, doing something important), but when I should be sleeping, I'm wide awake?

Eat more fiber, it's good for you.

This song is quite good: http://www.yousendit.com/download/M6nkvHqXz4N5TA%3D%3D (by Herbert by the way, Brendan sucks at tagging music)

You know what's nice about the internet? The humor. The term "politically correct" doesn't even exist in my mind anymore, there's just some terrible things that we should be able to laugh at. I think there's no better way to deal with these things than to laugh directly at them, it takes away their power.

On that note:
Nighty night.

Things that scare Joshy Poshy:

- Before about 1960, there was a different banana. From all accounts, it was bigger, tastier and more nutritious. What happened to this wonderful fruit? Well, we created it through selective breeding, and because it was so wonderful, every banana farm grew it. This is the catch, there was not enough genetic variation among the species though, everyone basically used the same plant, and mother nature did what she always does. Thus was born a virus that killed all the plants, and we don't have this banana anymore. Now to what actually scares me, we've done the exact same thing with our current bananas, and it's really only a matter of time before something wipes them all out. And I love bananas dammit!

- I usually see these two guys at the YMCA I go to. They're probably early 30's and every single time I see them, they do the EXACT same workout. Take a wild guess what it is? The basic frat boy routine: dumbbell bench press, bicep curls with dumbbells and then barbells, and skullcrushers, followed by 2 laps walking around the gym. Usually, I just laugh it off and shake my head. However, in the locker room, I overheard one of them on the phone with a client. Apparently these douche bags are personal trainers! Some poor soul is paying them for workout advice! That being said, if you are taking advice from someone with giant arms and chicken legs, then the following quote is true: A fool and their money are easily parted.

- More YMCA bullshit. As I was dragging my tired ass home, I was passing by this giant fat lady, literally opening her gullet, and pouring a bag of chips in. As she was watching one of her kids in the pool...

- I'm scared at how hard it is for my body to wean itself off of an addiction. I've been an ornery bastard lately since I've been trying to quit smoking. So I'm sorry if I'm a dick to you, I don't really mean it.


Anywho, not much else new in the life of Josh. Bronchitis sucks ass, and Mirko Cro-cop is going to demolish everyone in the heavyweight division of the UFC.

Oh, and Olympic style lifts are really the way to go (snatch, power clean/clean and press, etc...), get your whole workout down in just a couple of exersizes is my kinda workout.

what's this? Two posts in a week? oh my god! The apocolypse!

I'm a mathematician, not a linguist, dammit. I don't know how to sugar coat words, I know how to give the brutal, brutal truth in the plainest of terms. So in other words, I'm an asshole, but not intentionally.

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So I saw District B-13, a very cool French action movie. The premise of the movie is rather silly, but what is cool is the action sequences. If you haven't heard of it, parkour is the sport/discipline/whatever which is basically running around urban environments, dodging obstacles, as fast and efficiently as you can, this is what they do in the movie a lot. Combined with Boxe Francaise Savate (French kickboxing) and Muay Thai, you get some sick action sequences.


So yeah, lonely at home again, all of my own fuckin doing. hahahaha...ow. Sick too...damn you karma.

Don't smoke children, it's bad for you.

I remember why I used to love swimming. I'd have all this stress in my life, school, friends, usual teenage angst and bullshit. Then you get to practice and start doing your dry land training, and your bitterness and hatred just get boiling. I hate running, I really do, especially at 4am. When it's time to get in the pool, you're already tired, pissed off, and with a bunch of people you're tired of being around. You walk up to the diving block, adjusting your goggles, climb up, grip the block, and suddenly everything just slows down. You push off, have that second before you hit the water, and it's like Fight Club. Everything just focuses in, and nothing else matters but the motion of your body, the shearing of water across your palms, hearing your breathing in your skull, and feeling the rhythmic contractions of your muscles. It all makes sense all of a sudden. And then it's all over, you get out of the water, tired, sore and realizing everything you've forgotten for the last couple of hours. Fade back to reality.

Have you ever been punched in the face? If not, you haven't really lived. The immediate disorientation, the brief blackness, and then your reaction. How do you react? Do you get angry? Panic or get sad? Or, do you get calm and focus?

Your own personal humanity is best learnt at it's limits. When you're so tired, you can't even cry, you just sit and stare into infinity. When you're in pain, and can't imagine continuing to exist, and somehow you do. When you're in a situation, which requires action, and somehow you rise to the challenge. This is when you begin to understand yourself and what it's like to be human, and what scares me is how many people have never gotten anywhere near there.

Aloha!

I'm sittin here, in my housecoat...at 2pm, like a bum. I've spoiled myself for too long, I really need to get into my full time job.

It is said that man wants power. I haven't necessarily believed it, because I always thought that the more figurative interpretation of power is what is being referenced. I know I sure as hell don't want power, because it's basically responsibility. However, as I've been reading my periodization training book, I've been looking to develop, among other things, two specific qualities. Those are, force and speed, which any engineer will tell you is power. So I'll take the literal definition for 200 Alex.

The new LCD Soundsystem is quite good, as well as The Knife. Both recommendations by Mr. Dahlman strangely enough, I had been expecting more indie crap hahaha. And Goldfrapp is gettin some play as well.

I think it's really cool in whatever physical activity you do (and you damn well all better be doing at least one activity!), watching yourself progress. There is nothing more satisfying than running longer, stretching further, working faster, or lifting more. I like the tangible results you get from putting in the sweat and pain, it's about the closest feeling I can get to completing a mathematical proof.

Speaking of math, I was recently reading about how the Poincare Conjecture is now considered proven. The mathematician involved has both rejected the awarded Fields Medal (like a Nobel Prize but rarer) and the million dollar Clay Mathematics Institute prize. The reason being, he didn't need anything else, to those that know, the proof speaks for itself.

On a technical note, the method used in his proof is nuts. A metric space is some generalized space (place where things exist), which has a defined definition of distance between two points, the metric. He uses what's called Ricci Flow, which is essentially changing the metric of a space through a heat dispersion equation. So imagine being at a point in the space, and the definition of distance is being changed through the space that heat would flow through the space. Wow.

You know what pisses me off, GM coming out with their electric car now. The reason being is that you have to plug the damn thing in. So instead of the car polluting, it's now our power plants that are just polluting more. How the hell am I saving any money? Toyota and Honda have got it right, use evolutionary concepts instead of revolutionary. Why is this better? Use your tried and tested techniques, the problems will be easier to diagnose and correct, and the system will be more stable.

I usually don't watch much tv, but I caught a few specials last night on the obesity epidemic going on throughout North America and Europe. I'm suprised at how poorly the average person eats, it's really quite disgusting. Vegetables and fruits should be the major constitutants of your diet, with whole grains (oats, whole wheat, etc...) and leans cuts of meat filling out the rest of it, and low fat dairy if you can handle it. And potatos aren't a real vegetable as far as I'm concerned, your food should have bright natural colours, white means meaningless carbs.

Anywho, I should really go workout or do something with myself here, so until next time.

Folks, this is how you party.

So yeah, we all managed to get our shit together and have a good new years. Once again, I love the last minute prepration of the Bayview Crew, it always works out for you boys.

My friends rock, we all bring it so hard. If you don't believe me, come out to Calgary, and I'll prove it to you.