Sitting in the parking lot of Wendy's, eating a Spicy Chicken sandwich (yeah, a cheat meal) at 10pm on a Saturday night has made me feel pathetic. Almost as bad as going back home to read about strength training periodization techniques. This was all after an hour long nap.

So I went to Blockbuster, because I should at least watch a movie on a Saturday night. It took me half an hour to find The Constant Gardener.

Somehow I managed not to buy a pack of smokes on the way home, I have no idea how.

I am becoming truly impressed by my father's knowledge of wine. He made tapas tonight, which is basically an olive puree with herbs and spices. Served on a piece of cheese with the right glass of wine, it was a wonderful taste experience. The combination brought out a flavour of walnuts, wow.

I caught a lot of shit for going out all classy like on Friday. Sometimes a guy just needs to wear a tie and look good.

Christmas card idea: "I'm right, you're wrong, Merry Christmas", too much?

I really need to get out of Calgary. Having no one to balance me with more liberal ideas, my brash conservativism is going unchecked and it's an easy spiral to fall into. I'm shocked at my own feelings towards many subjects, and I feel distant from everything.

I saw a lady tonight pulled over getting a ticket and she looked my mom. I felt really bad, because I knew it just ruined her night for nothing important at all. What the fuck does it matter if you are going 10km/hr over the limit? Why the hell can I get fined 50 bucks for spitting or 250 for urinating in public? And yet I see fights every night at the bars and on the streets, I get harassed by homeless people everywhere I go, I see crack and meth addicts acting sketchy everywhere, and cops fucking harass my friend Mike for joking around and throwing a pizza crust after the bar. What the hell is going on in this city? Why doesn't anyone solve the problem instead of just milking the system?

Me and Brendan figured out how heat works today, why it's related to pressure and what is involved in the energy transfer. Sounds silly, but it helps me understand the world better. When you feel heat from a fire, that is really just CO2 particles with a lot of energy hitting your hand or passing the energy to other particles to bounce and hit your hand harder.

I can't stand people who say they listen to music and just talk right over it all the time. If you actually listen to a song I play in the car with me, and we both shut up, I have more respect for you than if you nattered on with a meaningless conversation. I hate meaningless conversation.

allright, enough on the hate front for right now. I'll bottle up the rest. Hope all is well with everyone.